Why
Earlier on tonight and for the last few weeks in fact ive been making a concerted effort to be honest and open about things, particularly in matters of the heart. When something is ambiguous, call it, when something makes you feel sad, say so, when something makes you feel happy, say so, when im not sure what is going on, ask the awkward questions. Kind of applies across the board with life in general. But this strategy has bitten me in the arse as it is seen as boring, or effort, or worse, as hassle. I dont know how people are supposed to win? If you go into it, being honest etc then if takes time and becomes 'effort' which creates bad feelings and then you end up feeling bad, if you leave the ambiguous stuff in you get broken in the end as you probably expected something that wasnt there. Argh. Its a tough call, but i think that being yourself is the main thing, making sure that you are looking after you, because nobody else is going to do it. Except maybe your wee gran...lol
